The Things I Miss As A Kid

I was born in an orthodox family where women talking to men were restricted to such an extent that even talking to my own father and brothers was also very uncommon sight. When I used to visit my friend's place I used to watch the way my friend used to play with her father. I still long for this because there was always a considerable distance between me and my father. And I know that my longing is not going to be satisfied as I lost my father few years back. This remains a scar in me and I missed this as a kid. The other thing I missed is the closeness with my brothers. Till this day I did not get a chance to know how they feel to have a sister and what that feeling is all about. There was hardly much communication between us which still continues. I am trying to know the whole world but I feel really sad about myself when I know the fact that I do not know my brothers.